whoa!!

so basically,

i havent been on xanga in a looong freaking time,eh? wow well alots happend. ive moved again for one. Morristown. um i lost the one person i loved to a slut. and well lifes just life. my friends are all the same and i must say ive had some good laffs the past few months. ive had a lot of first i guess u could say ??

but yea so anyways i dont rly remember wut to put on these things so i hope yall comment me and come join me on myspace or vampire freaks.

its my birthday!!

im hanging with bri lindsey and diana.well rly just bri cuz the others r sleeping. well lots has changed. i got over tha hole smoking thing ... just not for me i guess. yup me and david went back out lol but i broke it off cuz it just wasnt the same. now i just might like someone else?!? lol imma whore lol jp but yea i went shopping today with bri and diana. it was cool. i wanted a grill but these damn braces lol but yea this is prb my last entry... im just so damn bored ! lol ttyl

hey

god life just keeps fucking with me huh?

school sucks... friends are being asses and the only thing that makes me happy....made me sick friday. like really

boys? confusing. was getting over david. then he called... then i started likeing him again after it and now i dont know... he told me i could move on. so im guessing he wants me too. mayb theres another girl? oh well,

bday soon. all i want is to be able to get through this month easily...

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currently listening : smoke that seed by asian pride

ohhh yea

hi

still single  ... whoa i havent been single this long in about a yr lol dude. so ya its been pretty messed up tho. hes mad at me for some reason and wont talk to me . so i wrote a note and my friend said he ripped it up and threw it away. will said he wrote back but i havent gotten it . oh well i tried to make it so were friends but w.e. anyways other than that its been okay. been chillin with bri and nerina and amber and just some diff ppl. new crowd i guess lol so ya thats my update for while

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BAN

hi

so ya life is becoming more of a challenge everyday.  i feel just screaming half the time but sumtimes im perfectly normal (if u can call it that) but as for relationships ... im done for awhile. im sick of being rly happy then just end up dissapointed and hurt. i feel bad cuz i must have done sumtin pretty bad him to not even talk to me or anything but to do it through my friend with no explanation. no one disereves that in my eyes... in anyway if its relationships, friendships or wut not. but mayb im just stupid. the smart thing to do would be to be mad and just ignore him but i cant .. idk. i sure have done some stupid stuff lately. picked up smoking again and not to happy bout it but i did anyway and just other stuff that lost me some of my friends but w.e.   

on a happier note my bday is approaching =) another yr gone of my life. i wonder how many i have left? hMm...

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